November 8, 2007

everythings still good.  I'm unemployed, single, and broke... greaat..... but on the upside.  I haven't felt this... comfortable? in a while.  I'm closer with my family. I know who my friends are. I have my priorities straight or... straightER.  Family Degree Money then hopefylly the hot hunnies hahaha  but the most important thing is God. fo shooo.. keepin the spiritual intact while trying to make money and do all these things... its hard

but ey... the drama never stops huh?  o well... live love laugh like my sister told me.

take care.  see u when i see u.

STAY UP! haha

NEED TO GET RID OF FURNITURE AND OTHER SHIT?!  Give it to me...

Haha... haven't written in this for a while.. but here it goes....

Life is Good... there's no excessive drama going on... instead of worrying about who I got shit with or who wants to fuck me up... I can just worry about what I'm going to eat for lunch or dinner, who I have to go see or things that I have to do.  It helps alot when you stop acting like a badass and just LIVE as you were meant to. u kno? haha ASA CHRISTIAN. lol

Friends... Iyou know who you are... one chinese nigga is takin his chinese ass back to China (where he belongs!) and gonna start a... new? life?  A better one maybe?  But either way.... I'm happy for him.  He's been a HOMIE for like... what? 9 years now?? 8 year? haha

Some of them graduated... Jackie, Kristen, Dennis, Jason, Jen, Marsha, David, etc etc etc... soo many people.... feel like I'm laggin behind a little bit but its koo... we all take our own time finish at our own pace.... I keep telling myself thats a good enough excuse...for now. lol

Church is awesome... I'll never forget the kids that have changed my life..  Growin up in LA is FUKIN HARD and they have all kinds of drama they gotta deal with .... but they dont complain... they keep truckin... and it gives me strength to keep going tooo lol... and alot of em I'll miss.. some I wont... but it really helps a person grow when they have to learn something, prepare it, and then present it to youth that are HUNGRY for... God.. friendship, faith hope... all that good stuff... but what I've figured out so far... is stop trippin ho! God does what he does when he wants... and all we can do is live as a Christian. not just on sundays... but everyday all day lol

Family is family and we doing good rightn ow.. people grow up but I'm proud of my parents. lol they raised 4 corn children... and atleast 2 troublemakers... both god masters degrees.... I dont know where the helll the smart gene went but shit... it skipped me... as u can tell in this.....entry? 

Work is work... 9-5 same ol shit just a diffferent day. SKoo is SKoo... Life is life.

and shiet... I'll see you when I see you. PEAAAACE

With all this extra stressin
The question I wonder is after death, after my last breath
When will I finaly get to rest? Through this supression
they punish the people that's askin questions
And those that possess, steal from the ones without possesions
The message I stress: to make it stop study your lessons
Don't settle for less - even the genius asks-es questions
Be grateful for blessings
Don't ever change, keep your essence
The power is in the people and politics we address
Always do your best, don't let the pressure make you panic
And when you get stranded
And things don't go the way you planned it
Dreamin of riches, in a position of makin a difference
Politicians and hypocrites, they don't wanna listen
If I'm insane, it's the fame made a brother change
It wasn't nuttin like the game
It's just me against the world

Tupac-Me Against the World

The V tEch Massacre....

First angle....

its weird.... 33 people getting killed by a korean guy... and the whole nation goes crazy...

The Columbian Shooting... Two white boys use bombs and guns, wearing trench coats... and we just kind of shrug... JUST ANOTHER CRAZY WHITE BOY.

Second Angle...

In no way am i trying to imply that what the korean guy did was right... but honestly... EVeryone kills... PEOPLE DIE EVERYDAY IN LA.

and its not just about the race... its something else.... I hate suicidal people.. especially because they're so selfish... they think they're life is their own.... but 32 people dying because this fucker didn't want to go alone.. wtf is wrong with this foo???  This guy had problems.... he was quiet he was weird he was introverted.. lol he had suicidal tendencies and a gun and was asian.. I'm sure alot of people go through this.....

BUT...what about the skools and the people that were around him?  Why didn't they do anything to help him?  They knew he was fucked up in the head but they never tried to talk to him? They never tried to be his friend.... yeah... its his fault for pullin the trigger... but can we JUST blame him? THERES GOTTA BE SOMETHING DEEPER..... and in the end.. i think everyone wants to be happy or loved righ??.... Lets pray for ALL of the deceased... Its not JUST his fault.

On another angle...

In Iraq.... suicide bombers kill themselves everyday!! 5 car bombs a couple days ago... 170 people dead.... but we dont give a shit... its only because its in our cozy little nation... DEATH HAPPENS EVERYWHERE.

Side note....

The Korean embassy even gave the U.S. their condolences for some korean kid who never even lived in their country that long.... but if a white boy kills a gang of people.... Europe or whatever other white nation doesn't apologize.... This shows that Korea takes responsibility for their own people... I can respect that.

Subconsciously....

I think asian people in general.. have something to fear.... Discrimination.. Racism has been there..it went from Native Americans ... to African Americans... to Middle Eastern Americans...and now to Asian Americans....

I think it kind of offended me when a friend of mine asked if 'I was the cousin of the guy who shot those kids in VTECH...' It was a joke... but it pissed me off u kno?? maybe subconsciously I'm getting a little defensive....

BUT FUCK THAT...When will all the hating stop????????? When will the killing stop?????

Once we realize that we're all the same...  to alll u asians living around alot of white people... u just might get dragged around by some horses... and see people burning crosses and wearing white pillow cases on they're heads.....  haha just kidding.... but not really....